So today was a virtual day, meaning I mostly had Wednesday virtual classes (which I don't attend). I attended my debate meeting so I can make up practice rounds! I did, and made it up! Also had a GSA meeting where we talked about multiple things, but mostly about a camp where, next year, we could obtain funding, join GLSEN, and try and make a camp over the summer (after summer school) to attend where for 2 weeks or so we learn about gender identity and just...be gay. It was a great idea, I hope it goes through.
We also just talked...in general. I love my club so much. People actually listen to me. I love it....

i love the gsa at my school :) just had a meeting and people.... l i s t en to me?????? :) love it!!!!

Had a dream that I threw a party in my History class. Everybody (even kids I don't really like) showed up, and the teacher was there too, I guess because it was in his classroom and the school wanted him there to watch over us. One kid brought powdered beer? that you put in water and shake? and i had some and got drunk. My friends were there too, I think. So huh.

• are a transmed/truscum or support transmed/truscum (kalvin garrah, stormryan, blaire white, etc)
• dont support neopronouns/xenogenders
• pro-ship
• ableist
• under the age of 13 over the age of 27
• conservative, republican, trump supporter, etc
• racist
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• if you know me in rl
• etc (im not able to think of everything but i will check your page before adding you, i will deny it if you make me uncomfortable)

posting this for people who wanna message me but dont know what to talk about. im always down for you to just send me a message infodumping, but if you wanna have a conversation about something im also interested in, here:

• OFF by Mortis Ghost
• Undertale by Toby Fox
• WHOKILLEDXIX
• Ena
• Ghost and Pals
• Cats, birds, reptiles, and dinosaurs
• Meteorology
• Art and animation
• Nuerodivergency
• LGBTQ+ topics
• Music in general
• Band
• Speech and Debate
• Mental health
• Philosophy
• Coraline
• Non community age regression (sfw please)
• Jacksepticeye
• Everymanhybrid
• Marble Hornets
• ARGs
• True Crime (please no serial killer apologists, just like, true crime documentaries and stuff)

Today started out with it snowing. In April. Welcome to the Midwest everyone. I didn't know I'd be pulling out the snow boots during Spring, but I did.
At school for breakfast I had a yogurt cup with strawberries in it. The strawberries really didn't taste that good, but the yogurt was nice. Then I went to Spanish II, which I'm currently failing. Again, I really should be doing my work, but I'm just so fucking tired right now, lol. Band went as it usually did, though I need to remember to clean my mouthpiece for my clarinet. History was a different story. We're learning about JFK, and currently learning about his assassination. I knew we were probably going to witness some graphic content, but we had to watch a video where we see him get shot, just, straight up, watch him in the car next to his wife, close up get shot. It wasn't very nice to see, despite me seeing some graphic content in my time. Math was also a different story, I cried in it today. My teacher didn't help me in the way I needed, and I'm already very behind, so I just straight up cried. I'm so scared I'm going to fail school and never become a meteorologist.
I need to make up my congress debate speeches tomorrow on Zoom, that'll suck a lot, but the debate Zoom isn't until 12:35, so I can still sleep in <3.
I'm pretty hungry, I'm going to go make some toast.

• Leo

i like my theme but feel bad using others code. if anyone wants to message and help me, thatd be really cool :)

Just realized I should probably rant about my day.
So these EOC school things are coming up, but I have a bunch of missing assignments I need to get done that I haven't gotten done. I should be getting them done now, but I'm really tired. It's 11pm as I'm typing this, there's no way I'm getting any of this stuff done today. Sigh, I'm gonna fail school.
It sucks because I really wanna be a meteorologist, but how will I get into any college with the grades I have now? I guess you could argue that this is my first year of highschool, and we are in a pandemic right now, but still.
My dad won't stop bitching about my grades too. I get it, I'm failing, but I'm so tired all the time, I'm having panic attacks all the time, and my brain is all over the place all the time. It's no excuse, but it is too.

Oh, and my friend P (i'm shortening my friends names) got with O. O asked him out after our picnic and P said yes, I think? I don't know, it didn't seem all that big. Either way, I can't help but be a little worried. P and I are debate partners, and he's apart of my friend group which consists of P, O, C, V (my boyfriend) and me. I care about all of them, and as much as I love O, they can be a little bit much at times. I guess I just don't want O to hurt P?

Feelings are hard, and I care about my friends a lot, care about them as much as my special interests. Any kind of drama hurts me, like whenever me and my bestfriend T fight. Speaking of T, I'm also worried about them. T and I have been friends since sixth grade. We're very close, I consider them my sibling and they consider me their brother. In fact, we're so close, T's family is going to let me move in when I turn 18 and move out. I'm excited about that, I love their family a lot. Seriously, I'd kill for T and their family. I'm worried about T because they haven't been active on Discord as much as they used to be, and just how schools being going for them. A few months ago, I was in a voicechat with T and they started breaking down crying about school, and then a few months later a pipe burst in their new house. Also the fact that I haven't seen T since January of last year because of COVID, and we're waiting for everyone to get vaccinated before we can see eachother. We videocalled a few days ago, though. They dyed their hair a wonderful shade of purple and we talked about Minecraft and other random things. They looked very nice, and they seemed happy to see me. I'm glad to see them so happy.

Anyway, I'm tired, and should probably sleep.
Happy first actual blog post diary entry thing.

• Leo

So I'm going to be using this as a public blog where I will vent about literally anything. If anything triggers you, I'd probably not read this blog.
I'm very interested in OFF, Ena, WHOKILLEDXIX, and et cetera.
I'm a freshman in Highschool, with a 1.4 GPA (wow, I'm failing, surprising am I right?)

I enjoy doing debate, band, and I'm apart of my schools GSA.

I have ADHD, autism, and I'm gay, transgender, and polyamouras!

Seeming as this is my first blog post, I'll keep this relatively tame. Hope y'all enjoy getting into my dramatic ass life lol.