Hi guys! it's been a while since I got on, but how is everyone? Anyways, just wanted to say hi. Hope everyone has an amazing day! Remember to stay hydrated and eat something (if u can) I love you <3

I'll go first :)

it's been pretty tough for, honestly a couple of months, I have no motivation to do anything, I'm always so tired, I binge eat constantly. I went back to in-person school and had to switch back to online school because my anxiety was so bad about 2 months ago. My grandma just died of covid yesterday afternoon :( I wish I could just go back in time and spend more time with her.

OK, that was a lot, but I said it cause this a safe space and I want you to feel comfortable enough to vent to me. I don't know you, you don't know me, so let's talk. What has been on your mind? Are you okay? It's okay not to be okay. Remember that this is a safe space and you can trust me. We can talk about anything that you want to, so go ahead, vent, and I will listen to you.

First off, if you or someone you know is struggling with mental illness, don't be afraid to reach out. No matter how worthless or alone you feel, someone loves you, and someone is always willing to help. That being said, here are some phone numbers to call/text if needed!
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - 800-273-8255
The Trevor Project - (866) 488-7386 (i think this one is targeted to LGBT+ youth)
Crisis Text Line - Text START to 741-741
If in immediate danger - 911
If wanted, I can make a blog post just for hotlines that help with a number of things, not just suicide.
With that out of the way, here are 101 reasons not to off yourself...

1. rainy days in class

2. when you walk on warm concrete during rain

3. the smell of rain during the summer

4. coming back from vacation/road trip

5. going on a vacation/road trip

6. loud music

7. long drives

8. christmas lights

9. the first snow of the year

10. when it starts getting warm again in spring

11. when everything turns green/blooming in spring

12. when it gets to the perfect temperature in fall

13. volleyball in the front yard

14. warm blankets + cold room

15. swimming in the rain

16. watching the sunset change colors

17. bubble baths

18. stargazing in the summer

19. the feeling of sun on your skin

20. seeing tan lines

21. running in an empty street (bonus points if it’s raining)

22. hot showers/baths after playing in the snow

23. hot windy day

24. coming home with a fully charged phone

25. laying in the rain

26. dancing in the rain

27. waking up realizing you can sleep longer

28. walking down the hall when class is in session

29. the night before bdays/holidays when you can’t sleep

30. rainbows

31. getting into a freshly made bed

32. a cozy dark room

33. candles

34. watching snow fall

35. when you can’t stop laughing

36. sleepovers

37. skating even though you don’t know how to

38. making a new friend and becoming close within weeks

39. redecorating your room

40. songs under 2 minutes

41. carnivals

42. finding something you lost months ago

43. movie nights

44. cold water when you wake up in the middle of the night

45. your idols

46. the smell of a new car

47. doing something you’ve always wanted to do

48. friendly dogs coming up to you in the street

49. true love

50. your favorite restaurant(s)

51. laughing so hard your stomach hurts

52. animals

53. those days that are so perfect they don't seem real

54. crying with your friends

55. old memories

56. hallmark movies

57. seeing someone you haven’t seen in a while

58. looking through old photos

59. holding hands

60. Compliments

61. babies laughing

62. watching someone talk about something they’re passionate about

63. dogs getting excited when they haven’t seen you all day

64. swear words

65. making someone else smile

66. making yourself smile

67. when someone gives you their full attention

68. “I love you”

69. bonfires

70. first dates

71. breakfast in bed

72. getting the middle seat in a movie theater

73. you are needed

74. good books

75. the moon and stars

76. inside jokes

77. running through a field

78. concerts

79. the sky

80. falling in love

81. icecream

82. baking cookies

83. being called someone's other half

84. eatings chips and a sandwich after swimmings

85. When little kids hold onto your finger cause their hand is to small

86. Being unexplainably happy

87. finding money

88. summer nights

89. you have so many more memories to make

90. talking to someone all night

91. days spent entirely outside

92. getting good grades

93. hearing you favorite song over the radio

94. summer love

95. sitting on rooftops

96. puppy kisses

97. your future pets

98. jumping on a trampoline

99. shopping

100. exploring

101. trying new foods