what if shes lying what if dad is right, she is the one left me so many times but i miss her i need her,. i think im seeing her soon i dont even know anymore anytime i try too something happens and evrything just fucking sucks. i miss her smell,, she smelled like cigarettes but better yk wht i mean? idk. i just want to hug her. and feel safe and be happy. but what if shes lying what if she actually hates me like everyone else what if she leaves again and i never see her again fuckufkcjdiondijefGVYJKHUDGSC. sorry,.. god i feel so guilty right now. i ruined her life she was only 17 her life just started then i came. and now her life is shit and its my fault. im so sorry fuckfuckfuck. dad says shes trying to make him look like the badguy and lies to me, and she left me. why would he say that why god he always tries to make himself look good and anytime i hav an emotional breakdown bc of him he jsut tries to make himself look good and im trying to ruin him. and when i dont want to talk to him im the bad person. my mom tells me to try not to get upset over him hes not worth it. i think shes coming to see me tomorrow and take me with her for a bit. i hope it actually happens. im tired of everything always being a lie and getting my hopes up but, i trust her. last night i actually happy cried,... i havnt done that in years. it was because my mom finally got a car and can come get me. but its probably not gonna happen lol. idfk.

i wnna look like these bitches so bad
puts head in hands and sobs

https://data.whicdn.com/images/326669975/original.jpg
https://cdn.anisearch.com/images/character/screen/69/69702/full/418263.jpg

gingr whiteboy
https://static.tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pub/images/screen_shot_2018_09_27_at_60247_pm.png

https://tcrf.net/images/thumb/c/c3/FNF_boyfriend_dodge.gif/190px-FNF_boyfriend_dodge.gif

https://media.tenor.com/images/d5c37911fba332460f7242a0d4697eba/tenor.gif
https://i.redd.it/8tad6ivowk251.png

https://i1.sndcdn.com/artworks-000032207744-pq640x-t500x500.jpg

https://i.pinimg.com/474x/a2/59/76/a259769b464f1bc4a8052601bc1bfb2c.jpg

https://i.pinimg.com/originals/aa/60/7d/aa607d0c2667f12842e2e0d87b3ce40e.png

irl ppl,,...

https://img.wattpad.com/cover/262405975-288-k854552.jpg
im not explaining this 1
https://m.media-amazon.com/images/M/MV5BMzAyYjlkNTEtNWYwYi00MGVjLTgxMGMtZGMzYTFmMmY5Yzc5XkEyXkFqcGdeQXVyNjA0OTQyODE@._V1_.jpg
https://www.refinery29.com/images/9464837.jpg
(ignore how half of them hav like blue hair HJSABNSJ <//3)

mf jus hit me w a pillow bc i said okay like he told me 2 but jus a little bit louder,... that shit kinda hurt lolz. iv litrlly done all of my missing shit that i could do but no lol its never fucking enough. he says hes the one whos tired of me not doing anything and that he lets me do everything and this is how i repay him. that i should atleast do the "bare minimum" or whtevr the fuck this bitch says, he always tells me that hes here for me but he just feels so fake. anytime he does praise me or smthn it feels so fucking fake. everything does. all he fucking cares about is school i cant do it anymore iv tried as hard as a fucking can and i dont even get a good job or whatever, idk why i care its gonna feel fake anyway. i dont even get a mother fucking good morning anymore,.... ik that sounds stupid but my little sister gets everything shes fucking fake 2. i just want my mom but my dad wont even let me see my family bc im doing bad in school. i litrlly went 2 see my aunt yestrday n when i got back he made me do more school n when i got stressed out he said "stop acting like this, yr so lucky i let u see kenzie n this is what i get from you." what the fuck dude thats my fucking aunt plz. he wont let me see my mom eithr bc he thinks if i go see her my grades will get worse. but honestly they would probly get way better because she actually cares about my fucking mental health and treats me more then a fucking,.,.idk but she would treat me better,.. i miss her :(

i would like 2 thank this video 4 raising me <3
(i hav had unsupervised internet access since 4 or 5 yrs old yk)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oq7B44odQ00

anyways senpai from fnf...,,,.....,,., cant stop thinkn abt him 4 som reason, hes the reason i got up this morning,, i feel like he would treat me better then any1 i know even tho he has shitty anger issues but i do 2 sometimes and that doesnt make it better but i still luv him!!!!! ik he would want me 2 do better so im trying ig,, i probly sound rly creepy rn 🤨🤨😦 i drew him again yestrday after my dad yelled at me 4 not cleaning my room, he makes me happy!! he would treat me better then my dad and never leave me like my mom ily senpai (i sound insane rn wh😕‼️) anyways look at this cute ass edit of him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ArBJo8bMNQ
WHY IS EVRY1 HERE SO NICE BYE ILY GUYS SM /p /gen

anyways heres som of my art asf
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/61/18/ea/6118eaa3fb6af3d53a7bfb2a181ad0bb.png
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/ee/d9/bb/eed9bb63c662dd841898d87297759267.png
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/57/95/4a/57954a80f54e16fdc59c90145e510346.png
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/e6/34/2d/e6342d97d9fb8b1e4cb80216e04e0638.png
piss lol

https://tumblrsexymen.fandom.com/wiki/Senpai
how long has he been there </3 some1 save him

https://i.ytimg.com/vi/xCgEutcEZw4/maxresdefault.jpg
i wonder where he is now like, i cant stop thinking abt him help <33 he wont get out of my head

disc; 4RSON#8921
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wattpad; kazuichisteeth (dont ask <3)
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insta (i nvr use this anymore); picozgun
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spotify; https://open.spotify.com/user/s1lqn2363q3yzyzg3kqfq9pkk?si=85da0e5e46584c3d
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soundcloud; https://soundcloud.com/arsonsuxzlol
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pintrst; https://www.pinterest.com/senpaimybeloved

https://media.tenor.com/images/b91d443ebaddfbac010716f3358b05d9/tenor.gif

HEYHEYHEY :DD

-msi ( i dont supprt those mfs fuck them. )
-mothr mothr
-100 gecs
-osquinn / p4rkr
-h3artcrush
-mitski
-glass animals
-kid trash
-lemon demon
-KevinKemp
-conan gray
-siouxxie
-baby metal
-lil peep
-kawai sprite
-ayesha erotica
-chase atlantic
-the nbrhd
-cigarettes after sex
-eyedress
-mr kitty
-kevinkempt
-ElyOtto
-crywank
hnh ill add the rest ltr ;p

-makoto naegi
-chihiro fujisaki
-yasuhiro hagakure
-toko fukawa
-leon kuwata
-genocider syo

-fuyuhiko kuzuryu
-kazuichi soda (litrlly my highest kin </3)
-hiyoko saionji
-ibuki mioda
-nagito komeada

-jataro kemuri
-masaru daimon

-shuichi saihara
-kokichi ouma
-himiko yumeno
-kiibo
-ryoma hoshi

-zenitsu agatsuma
-kaidou shun
-sayori
-yamaguchi
-tsukishima
-kenma
-L lawliet
-lee hooni
-dave strider

-popee
-kedamono

-roy (spooky month) [mm new high kin]
-cody (totl drama islnd)
-rigby (regualr show)
-kyle (fanboy n chumchum)
-zim lolz (invadr zim)
-darwin (amazing world of gumball)

-greg (night in the woods)

-pico (picos school / fnf)
-cassandra (picos school)
-hanzou (picos school)
-that crying kid in fnaf lmao
-pearl (spltoon)

-darcy (twins in paradise)

that bunny from vewns little bunny animation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdYYI0QFlOU

https://tcrf.net/images/thumb/8/89/FNF_boyfriend_attack.gif/354px-FNF_boyfriend_attack.gif
omg no way look at bf go