i've made a server for my friends and i more tha na year ago. we call everyday, play videogames, put each other in jail...you know the drill. however, ive beenthinking about adding some bots.
here are some that i already have on my server:
-groovy
-mudae
-dank memer
-epic rpg

does anybody have a tip for a new bot to spice up one's server?

the answer is simple; because of last years spring. many problems between parents that are still ongoing, my anorexia showing and it affecting my body greatly, my depression and my first medication...to put it simply, it just brings pain.

oh and how could i forgot about easter? i am an atheist and i live in an originally very christian country. tha worst thing about it is this one pervy tradition with guys going to see all the girls in their neighboring houses to whip their asses with wooden sticks. us, girls, are supposed to thank them for that and give them something in exchange like an egg or a chocolate.
WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT NASTY ASS WHITE OLD MAN MADE THAT A TRADITION? ive experienced it many times and even if i didnt give my consent i got my ass smacked. im supposed to thank them for that AND give them something too???
i swear this country is a piece of shit...and dont even get me started on the discrimination of romani people in here.
anyways thats a story for another time. overall, i hate spring. hope yall dont cause it can be a really pretty season and i wish that you can experience it to the fullest.

THE SONG IS OUT ON SPOTIFY, APPLE MUSIC AND MANY MORE...well, except for youtube music. you see, im having a lil problem with them atm so theres a chance that it may not get uploaded there TT
ANYWAYS LOOK FOR TEENAGE CRISIS BY BARB!!! i hope yall like it :)

so far i have been identifying as non-binary. however, i've come to a very important realization...that i actually dont feel like that. why is that so? well, ever since i was a kid i was known as a tomboy (later on it turned into internalized misogyny). as time passed by, gender norms got more andmore into my head. logically, my brain started thinking that what i was doing wasnt "considered" female. that's where my non-binary journey started.
now, where did i got the idea that this was not me? from grace wandervaal, to be honest. she came up with a new song don't assume what you don't know. it is about how when she shaved her hair people started assuming shit about her and that's when it hit me. just because i do something that is not particulary "feminine" i can still be female. the only thing that matters are my feelings.
has anybody else come through a realization like that too?
ps: here is the song :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBU1_4CZJLM&ab_channel=GraceVanderWaalVEVO

yes. that's right. this wednesday (march 17th) at 9 am all across the world. its called teenage crisis by barb (aka me). it will be available on spotify, youtube, apple music and many more. i cant wait hdofhasodfjdfdofsdhofhds

her name is jorgina enigma whiskey the first. feel free to admire her
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/71/e4/73/71e473cd3fd9e7a466309b2418642125.jpg
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to put it simply, everytime i try to make a new friendship (irl) and i think that i found an incredible friend and im so thankful for them. /HOWEVER/, then they pull up some move on me and i get uncomfortable af. LIKE DOOD PLEASE DONT.
For example today; i went outside with my bestfriend and we were playing lorde outside while laying on a blanket. then, all of a sudden, she interwines her fongers with mine. i get extremely anxious and unsafe whenever something unexpected like this happens, so as soon as i came up with the idea i reached out for a tissue to blew my nose and then made a joke about how i cant feel anything cause i lost all sense in my fingers thanks to how cold it is.
IF ANYBODY HAS A SIMILAR EXPERIENCE LIKE ME FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMENT BECAUSE IM HOPELESS AND THIS IS AT LEAST THE FIFTEENTH TIME THIS HAPPENED TO ME (with different people)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=az8GPpaEHQY&ab_channel=Lindea

!!!TPN SPOIERS!!!
... well, kinda

its isabellas lullaby fro the pormised neverland. i always either play it on spotify or on ukulele and cry like a new born child. if you know the promised neverland then you know the histpry of this song. for me personally, i like to think about it as isabellas story. the first part: innocent childhood, she doesnt know whats in the outer world. the main part: acknowledgement, she realizes theres something more outside, her love is growing, signs of hope and determination for justice. the last part: giving up, she slowly abandons the hope and loses the one she loves, then isabella accepts the reality and goes on with her life like everybody else in the farm.
beautiful, yet sad.

WHY DIDNT I REALIZE EARLIER. I. HAVE. A. MOON. IN. GEMINI. IT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING. ALL MY SHITTY DEPRESSIVE EPISODES, WHY I FEEL LIKE A SHITTY FRIEND...well the depressive episodes could be because i stopped taking my meds without telling anyone but shhh!

please don't do it, it will end up looking wierd. i'm talking from my personal experience.