not that much tho, from you i did expected that doesn't mean it don't hurt, in fact did twice more, don't blame you tho, neither am going to bother you with my shit after all it's my shit anyway, one thing i did not expected tho was her, that was really nice of her but i've learned my lesson, and am not going to bother her either, im just gonna pretend im fine

as fucking expected

why am i so in love with jennie

lisa (important detail: she has ed) stayed up this one night till it was 5:30 am to see the sunrise, since one day from there she had to go back to a normal sleeping schedule since school was about to start again, she sat on the window with her oversized white hoodie, her favorite, the one that still had her sister's smell and just stared into the void, till she heard a noise from the street, she saw a girl in a bike, the girl was trying to climb a window to the second floor where lisa deduced it was the girl's room at the front house, the girl felt the stare and looked back, and before she went into the room she just smiled to lisa and putted her finger on her mouth telling lisa to keep a secret, lisa just smiled back and after watching the sunrise she went to sleep.
(rosie was a new neighbor, lisa had never seen her before around there)

lisa is at the beach where there's no one, or that's what she thought but when she looks in the horizon she sees a girl go deeper and deeper, further and further into the sea, till she can't see the girl anymore, some five seconds go by and the girl who had just take a dive into the water dind't emerge, lisa's heart clunched in her chest, she looked at the sand, not too far from her there was shoes, a book, an empty bottle of wine and some piece of paper wich the bottle was stoping from flying away, it took no longer than 2 seconds for lisa to click, as soon as she did she ran to the sea hoping she could find the girl and bring her back.

jisoo just broke up with her 4 year girlfriend, rosé, she's 24, and rosé was her first and olny gf so she knew nothing about the world since from her teenage years she went straight to a relationship where there was too many "rules", too many planned things, jisoo doesn't know what she wants from life, so her job friend (she works at a coffe shop as the manager) sooyoung recommends her to meet a call girl, at fisrt she dind't agree cause she wasn't ready for sexual relationships yet but then joy said that she could pay the girl to just stay with her and i don't know drink and talk, she also dind't agree to it but then joy just scheduled ayways and she just went, she dind't have nothing to do anyways, the nigh they met they just spent the first moments at the room talking and when the call girl, jennie, finds out that jisoo doesn't want anything from her they just go through the city, after the night jennie and jisoo don't lost contact and actually use each other as escapes from reality since both of them needed, jennie introduces jisoo new stuff and jisoo gives jennie that home sensation, like that a kinda painfull love grows since jennie is falling out of love from her non responded love lisa but not totally out yet and jisoo still recovering from her past relationship, recovering from the things that were left in her, but before both of them are totally stable they fall in love with each other, wich brings pain for both since they don't have their stuff figured it all out yet, they decided to give a time, four months go by and after that they are going to decide what to do.
(jennie is a call girl but mostly for stuff just like jisoo did, sometimes people want more than just that but that doens't happen anymore after her and jisoo are in "relationship", that is because jennie was only trying to get money to pay her tuition wich she conquers so she stopped working as a call gil)
(jisoo doesn't know what she wants to do but as the journey of trying new things out she finds out about art, later on she decides to open her own handcraft shop where she sell handmaid rings and other jewelry)
(the relationship of jisoo and rosé was very good at the beginning but eventually both of them fell out of love w each other, still they tried to get back wich left some scars on both, at the end even tho they broke up the most peacefull way possible it was still four years of life that jisoo had to overcome. / about lisa and jennie relationship, jennie had been in love with lisa for almost a year but lisa started dating in the beginning of that year so there was nothing jennie could do, but when lisa breaks up with the person she was with she tries to have something with jennie even knowing that jennie was trying to move on, was hurting to move on with someone else, she gives her false hopes, she tries to give a try between her and jennie but jennie was too hurt to give a try, so at the second date they decide to just stay as friends ps.: that was happening while jisoo and jennie were almost fully knowing of each other feelings, but that little flame of hope in jennie made her accept the dates with lisa, after all she and jisoo weren't nothing official, it hurts still tho for jisoo, but none of them had fault, it was just how feeling are, lisa wasn't wrong too, she tried to love jennie but it just wasn't meant to be, when that happens jisoo has crisis due to feelings of her past relationship that left scars, so because of that both of them decided to give it a break even tho they weren't trying something with someone elese, it was just to figure themselves out.)
ɞ the story vibe is that one calm storm, it's gonna be something comforting and hurtfull at the same time

☽〢inspo pic
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dont mind the plot things is just plot storys that come in my head and i wanted somewhere to put them so i decided to put here, maybe someday i'll put on wattpad

Jisoo is adopted by people who are related to the king, jisoo's father is the king brother, her birth mother was actually her adoptive mother's maid, they had a good relationship, jisoo's adoptive mother used to treat her birth mother very well, they were basically good friends, but her mother died at birth, jisoo's adoptive moyher always wanted a child but she never managed to have one due to infertility, so before jisoo's birth mother died she gave jisoo to her adoptive mother (just some background story).
The story begins with the king's death due to a genetic dicease that runs in the family, and because he had no child his two only nieces were called to ascend the throne, these two were jisoo, the king bother's daughter and jennie the king sister's daughter, but who was suposed to assume the crown wasn't decide yet so for that jisoo and jennie go trhough a journey were for a whole year they have to study and train everything that they need to know to rule a kingdom. (details: even tho jisoo is adopted the king was the one to sign the papers so he recognized her as his brother and sister law legitimate daughter, like that she had all the rights a blood related one would including the right to the throne. / the people responsible for the kingdom dind't pick the next based on age because jisoo and jennie were born on the same day and year, and also because their criteria was competence and ability to rule the kingdom, wich would be defined after the year they would spent studying). The people in charge of the election of the next queen set up one thing for both the girls: if one gives up or if one manages to convice the other to give up the one who stays gets the throne.
So like that the two most greedy and proud people of all the kingdom start a journey to see who's going to be the next queen, and as they try to make each other give up and with the time they spend together new feelings start to grow, for both the girls, ater on they decide what these feelings mean and what they are going to do with that.
But the story basically goes with the most two proud, greedy and hot women of all kingdom trying to bring one another down.(the sexual tension? fucking astronomical).

⎙ some quotes i read today

"so many years of education and no one taught us how to love ourselves"
"your future needs you, your past doesn't"
"we're strangers again, but this time with memories"
"enjoy life no one makes it out alive"
"she never looked nice, she looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice, it was supposed to make you feel something."
" i knew i lost someone, but never realised who until i looked in the mirror"