it's such a hard game and i love the style... but idk man i like living-
but you can't tell me when you listen to this you don't want to bash sakuya like dflhsldghlsd
https://youtu.be/5wFRIWFraWQ

two time by jack strawberry

WAS THIS YOUR LAST PIECE OF GUM
i always thought this song was about a person who doesn't give a shit about anything. they live life day by day and then there's the apathy that comes with this lifestyle. "i think that i like you. you do? yeah but something bugs me about the ways you lick your envelopes so-" or that's how i see it. i'm too lazy to look it up. but i feel like this line talks about this said person not being to find anyone perfect for them and leaving others for stuff so insignificant. i feel like this song is about being in depression for too long?

sudno by molchat doma (lyrics by boris ryzhy)

AND TO NEVER NEVER DIE
this song is about a man who tried to commit suicide in a bathtub but survives and ends up regretting his suicide. THE POET WHO WROTE THE LYRICS DIED IN 2001 BUT THE SONG WAS RELEASED IN 2018! the name of the song literally translates to "vessel" from russian. the way the lyrics are constructed is really abstract as it refers to the bathtub as "enameled vessel", hence the name. this song has been one of my favourites lately. SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER!!

verbatim by mother mother

OH OH YEAH YEAH
it's about a man who doesn't mind feminine expressions and talks about toxic masculinity. i think this song is about how other men would try their very best to seem "manly" but if he is put in an enviroment where that is the norm he would seem like a freak. a freak who needs to be straightened out. "i'm a twelve ounce steak" refers to him becoming the victim of this far right society in my opinion. this song is okay? not my favourite.

my favourite is hall by baths.

here's some of my personally favourite anime

• bunny girl senpai
• demon slayer
• violet evergarden
• erased

that's all lmao

it hurts really
writing all of this is just to confuse others.... trash that never makes sense
i am sooo bored
maybe i should leave and never come back
this is the third time writing this blog
every time i changed the contents of the blog and the title
but it's all meaningless
what makes people stay
how to make love stay
it's a good album
do you wanna know my favourite song?
it's a secret....
a person i love showed it to me one day
i still listen to it
it's messed up... but in a good way
some days i put it on loop and remember them
it helps me get by
BUT THIS IS A SECRET SO YOU CAN'T TALK ABOUT IT NONOOO
ugh whatever
they'll never find this
https://youtu.be/eh1gEianbRg

believe in the leash
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ugh ena are you drunk again???
NONO!!NONONONOOOOO

haha
....

if i drain my blood what will happen???????
omg you're soooo sexy
BRUH
ilovethatonepinkmonstermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
certified wilbur simp
acab?? ahahaha

PAIN YOUR BLOOD PINK IDIOT
MAKE IT GO INSANE
CUT MY FUCKING BRAIN IN HALF
SOUP MADE OUT OF GUTZ AND LOVEEEEE

AHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MAKE ME SCREAM IN FEAR
TRANQUILITY
ENDLESSSSS INDULGENCE
MIND YOU I AM A BUNNY
i will take a bite off your heart
OPEN MY RIBCAGE AHAAAAHH
.....
so...
yeah i'm kinda tired of this
sorry
so far i've been writing random stuff that came outta nowhere
they have no meaning
just me being edgy
yeah i'm boring
pog?
no it's not pog
i am just wasting my time with this
love is fake
what?
who said it? me of course
this is enough.
no it's never enough.
what is never enough?
time ig?.... i wasn't really thinking what that line meant.. i want more of this world and it's people. i want the world to look at me, point at me, yell in fear when they see me.... i just get so high off this. maybe it's just human nature? to want attention from those around you...but it's not enough! i want more of this.... i want people to love me and worship me! look at me i am a god!! influencers and people who can control the trends are gods.... MEDIA!!! I AM STARVING FOR IT!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO CONTROL ALL WHO ARE AROUND ME I CAN'T WAIT TO BECOME A GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO BECOME A GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO BECOME A GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO BECOME A GOD I AM STARVINGGG AHAHHAHA GIVE ME MORE IT IS NEVER ENOUGH . . .. .. . . . .. .. yeah okay enough useless blabber. but it's true. if i can make people worship me and love me more than they love themselves i'll be a god....a god a literal god oh my god i am a goddddd i can make others follow me to the end of the world and then the best part is that i'll point at the void and tell them to jump in and lose themselves and they'll do it
i want my own little human pets i can treat like ants and make them serve me and live by my will... i want to be surrounded with those scum who think of themselves like they are lowly trash.... i might sound crazy but everyone wants power deep inside of them
I WANT TO CONTROL OTHERS I WANT TO SEE THEM GO THROUGH EXTREMES FOR ME AND ONLY FOR ME AND MAYBE IT'S NOT EVEN FOR ME BUT FOR MY WORD I TOLD THEM TO DO SO THEIR GOD HAS ORDERED THEM THEY MUST ABIDE THEY MUST GO ON THIS IS PERFECT AHHAHAHAH

oh my god... what did i just write?....
this is why i hate myself
if i'm aware that this line of thinking is wrong then am i still sane?
insane people don't think they are insane
so i must be far off from that
good
very good.
i don't want this to be found.
will i even post this? probably not.
if you're reading this i'm so sorry..... I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN ANY OF THIS....
but i'm right
those who control the trends.... they are gods... it's not just about fashion or social media.... it can be stock markets and world domination... WORLD DOMINATIONS SOUNDS APPEALING TO SO MANY PEOPLE YOU KNOW THAT

....but i'm satisfied with my life as it is... i know this is for the best... you know what- i am just gonna try and become famous.... but i won't do anything messed up haha... i do everything for fame and attention....
maybe it's just late and i need to go to sleep
yeah gn everyone
<3

yooo
me the stupid whore woke up and chose the internet...
this is tiring but it's not like i have a choice.
my head is filled with trash and anxiety.
i want a monster.
fuck man is there anyone out there who wants to t a lkkk....
i wish i had money to buy a binder and some GOOD FUCKING CLOTHES
today i woke up and chose to lie to myself using this piece of trash called the internet.
who will twitter cancel today??
my head is so empty... .. like is there anyone who can give me attention so i have something to dwell on????
in love with everything i see.
SENPAI PLEASE NOTICE ME!!1
NO STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOINFG
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
how big is my kidney? can i like... hold it in my palm????
i want to animate, but i know my mediocre art will get me nowhere so i just gave up on it and started coding. i never liked coding. sure it seems like an interesting job and... yk it's a good skill but i never wanted to go to a school with a specific program with c o d i n g. man i need drugs. no seriously. there's nothing else i can do rn.
I HAVE SCHOOL IN... FIVE HOURSSSS
does anyone have spare change so i can buy a monster??
STRIP ME BABY AND SLASH MY FACE
still don't know who i am.
i wish i could say i am trying but i really am not. i simply don't give a shit.
how many times did i lie today????????? ten or twelve>>>???
why do i lie so much i have no reason for it
i don't care lmaooooo
I CUT 5CM OFF MY SKIRT TODAY
I KNOW I'LL NEVER BE SATISFIED WITH MY LIFE BECAUSE I KEEP LYING TO MYSELF
i am accepting gf requests. requirements:

• even if i cheat you'll live me
• devote your every second to me
• i don't have to be there lmao i have better things to do
• is okay with getting hit with objects
• is okay with stabbing
• is okay with cuddling
• is okay with gore
• is okay with being left behind and not saying anything
• is okay with lies
• is okay with...
  haHhh as if i'd ever make my own gf experience any of these things!! NEVER111!
  ....
  never again.
  LMAOOO I WAS JUST KIDDDING GUYS I DID NOT ABUSE ANYONE DON'T WORRY LMAO LMAO
  <3
  i like that heart
  <3
  <3
  good morning!