It's been a while, again. Some of friends on here probably don't even use this site anymore but I needed to write this down somewhere.
I've been at the mental hospital for 28 days for suicidal thoughts. I have to admit, being there really helped me but.. but going back to real world seems so weird and gray. It's so depressing. I started self harming on visible spots because at this point I'm not sure if this is real or not. So what if they notice? I'm gonna go away soon anyway.
I was thinking about making this my last blog. I don't think I'll be back. Maybe if I do survive but who knows. Maybe in few months I'll log in and say how finally happy I am.
This is kinda my safe place to vent and truly be myself. I didn't make any friends on here so I'm happy that if one day I just disappear no one will remember me. I'm getting tired. I guess meds kicked in.

Goodbye, for now.

-M

I haven't been on here for few weeks, maybe months. I feel isolated and weird. Like this is a dream. I'm visiting my therapist tomorrow. It's gonna be okay. It has to be.

𝐀 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 :𝟑
[ 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞? ]

𝐀𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞

• 𝙱𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚘𝚞 𝚂𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚢 𝙳𝚘𝚐𝚜
• 𝙺𝚞𝚛𝚘𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚜𝚞𝚓𝚒
• 𝙾𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎
• 𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚔𝚒 𝚗𝚘 𝙺𝚢𝚘𝚓𝚒𝚗
• 𝟿𝟷 𝙳𝚊𝚢𝚜
• 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝙽𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍
• 𝚂𝚝𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚜 𝙶𝚊𝚝𝚎
• 𝙹𝚒𝚋𝚊𝚔𝚞 𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚎𝚗 𝙷𝚊𝚗𝚊𝚔𝚘-𝚔𝚞𝚗
• 𝙺𝚘𝚎 𝚗𝚘 𝙺𝚊𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚑𝚒
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𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬

• 𝙾𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑
• 𝙶𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗 𝙸𝚖𝚙𝚊𝚌𝚝
• 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚂𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎
• 𝙱𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚜
• 𝙼𝚢𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝙼𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚛
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I have no idea if people see these or what. I made this account like few hours ago so can someone explain if this is for asking questions and stuff or you can rant here and pretend it's yo twitter page