the first time i met you i was enchanted by your natural beauty in both personality and appearance. you always knew what to say when you were talking like you had your day planned before you woke up. i never thought someone like you existed, they always say that everyone has a soulmate, i never believed that saying until our eyes met in that garden on one of the rainiest days of the year. the rain was so bad it hurt to stand up. i was sketching in my notebook while it was just drizzling and then i realized that a bunch of rain had started to pour down. as i packed up my things i ran through the garden and saw you. your dark blonde hair and you innocent jade eyes seduced me at one glimpse. i heard someone say it takes four seconds to fall in love, but i think it only took me a half a second to realize i wanted to spend the rest of my existence with you. when i was running in the garden and saw you i immediately fell on the ground because i was too busy admiring your glow. you seemed so clueless and you didnt even look like you knew it was raining, you were just taking care of this frog you had never seen before, but when you heard my slam on the ground you looked over and our eyes had first met as you walked closer to me.--- part 3 com ing tmrw ig

when i was younger i didn't get much of love and didn't know what it was. i wasn't exposed to it and didn't give it. i grew up in an adoption center when i was your age. as i got older i think i started to realize the true reality of society. society tells you you can have whatever you want, but we have taxes to even have the right to work. people tell us to spread positivity but those same people tell others they are the ugly ones. for all the christians or people who mainly believe in god, why do you worship him and not the devil, why was the devil so bad, because he didn't want the same things as god? or is it because he had a different skin tone than god? or maybe its because he didn't want to live in the same place as god. these things do not teach us love but a hatred for people who do not believe the same as you. after i was adopted i was taken in with a christian family and taught me all about god and i hated when they would think its weird or annoyed by the fact that some people aren't worshiping "god". so when i was in that household i never experienced love.

when i got older and met you i finally realized what love was. you were the one that made me draw those little doodle hearts in my notebook. i was trying to impress you all those years ago just to realize all i needed to impress you was to get out of bed in the morning, every morning.----- i will write more tomorrow or im just scared there is too much characters so ig this is part 1??

i dont really show any emotion anymore and i enjoy the dark and how it caresses everything in it's reach. I think it was when i started to grow fond of the cold that i realized that dark wasnt so bad after all. i dont get much sleep but for me not much is needed anymore, neither is food, i think i adapted to not giving myself anything that my body is just used to everything now. I love pain so much and i could never find out why. Whenever i show emotion no matter what it is i feel selfish for no reason. i just dont feel human anymore, but who said that was a bad thing anyway.

in the song streets by Doja Cat, Doja cat uses her words wisely when saying that her significant other is one in a million, estimating that there are around 350,000,000 men in the world so she can just find another man like she already has.

you don't even get it
you don't even want to
how could i just leave you
loving you as i do
how could i go and quit
knowing we're the right fit
wearing you like new shoes
thinking that I can't lose
ooh i just want your body
ooh i just want your body
ooh i just want your body
ooh i just want your body
you're just like the last one
too much work and no fun
like you've just forgotten
Eden's fruit is rotten
man in all the pictures
he now how to please her
you don't even care, even care, even care, even care
ooh i just want your body
ooh i just want your body
mmh