do any of you know Cinnamoroll?
yeah, that guy.
he was my supposed boyfriend forever, he asked me out, we always talked and stuff like that.

it never stayed that way.

if you know me well, i can easily fall in love with people, and never let go. even when i cant show it.

and this i cant let go.

he left me, without really telling me.

lets go back in time.

soo. it was january 14th, 6 days before my bday.
he messages me. "holy crap you actually accepted."
he started it all..
we started a relationship. i kept being depressed, and he did care, and stop it.
but now?
"i just meet a person 2 days ago
and we had, so much in common"
"even as best friends, we will go through everything."

i lost it.

couple of weeks later, here we are..

i dont know why he did it.. i wass just myself.. hell, i did that to everyone. yet he decides i died and went for someone else.

i am incredibly saddened by this. i maybe did everything wrong. hell, i must have!
i am like, a quiet and accepting kid.. why would you do that?
i wanna ask him, but i just dont wanna go back to arguing.. itll worsen such a depression i have.

i planned for our future too. i saved up money, had a face reveal, i was gonna get gifts, but i heard he left.. so i stopped. this wasnt my best of times.. i was so sad...

i listened to this while, this happened. it was calming but it didnt help.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u99AklNGpyc

i changed. i really did. and i may be going asexual.. but if they wanna give me one more chance.. i wont mind..

i just.. dont have words for this.. heres the good times that me and cinna had.. ill miss em greatly.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WdHY1MeYSgxHlQYz7udIuHQ1uOR70E0W-aNj27GgPwI/edit?usp=sharing

there will be more if i feel like adding more.
im gonna go cry real quick.. brb.

I was once a shy and lonely problem child
Because others saw me as being too strange and wild
and you were the one who cared
You told me you'd be there
Giving me the strength to find hope

Even if there’s nothing I can really do
Anything seems possible whenever I’m with you
Cause you joined me on this hilltop
We can see forever, so it seems
Gave me inspiration
That I can use to fuel my greatest of dreams

I want to one day soar like the clouds up above our heads free from all troubles and pain
I want to explore what the the world has beyond this town
There’s so much knowledge to go gain
But I fear I am to small
To weak and frail on my own
I always fail but then you came
Gently giving me a smile
Saying: be brave and be strong
Go fight for your friends
You're here, you belong
We're friends till the end

All I want to do is once is just succeed
But for that to happen you're the one I need, one I need

Yknow when your the only one in your friend group that is really online always?
thats me right now.
yay.