I am a loser
i am so dumb
people kill me
please let me burn
im a loser
baby im a turd
baby im a loser
let me learn
baby im a loser
baby im hell

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love of my life

Q-What color is the tv in your room?
A- black with stickers on it

Q-Hows your heart lately?
A- its okay, people find new ways to make me feel like an ungreatful burden

Q-one year from now, what do you think you'll be up to?
A- sad about something

Q-how many different shirts have you worn today?
A-one because im in school rn lol

Q-do people who dont use proper english bother you?
A- no.. people who are the grammar police annoy me though

Q-do you own slippers? what do they look like?
A- YES! i love slippers

Q-whats in your cd player right now?
A- i think the doors

Q-what about your dvd player?
A- donnie darko ,always <3

Q-do you write down events on a calendar?
A- hell nah,,, who has time for that?

Q- is it cold outside?
A- yes very very cold

Q-any tattoos?
A- nah,, im not gonna get any either, they just aren't for me but i do like looking at others tattoos

Q -planning on getting any?
A- nope

Q-do you have any siblings?
A- yes i have an older irritating sister.

Q-what game system do you play most?
A- PS4 even though i haven't gamed in a while

Q-favorite word?
A- martyr or melancholy

Q-what phrase do you text most often?
A- SDJENFEBFEKSJN

Q-who's the 4th missed call on your phone from?
A- either my mom or ace

Q-country music or rap?
A- country music ngl,, old country like Neil Young and Johnny Cash hit different.

Q-spiderman or iron man?
A- spiderman... i hate iron man

Q-bill clinton or obama?
A- Obama because at least he's not a ya know... gross

Q-honey or baby?
A- honey 100% you'll never catch me calling anyone baby. if someone calls me that i get so grossed out.

Q-blue or pink?
A- BLUEEEEEEE

Q-ranch or italian dressing?
A- RANCHHHHHH

Q-mouse or touch pad?
A- touch pad... a mouse is too much

Q-verizon or sprint?
A- verizon

Q-stay in or go out?
A- stay in.. or more just being by myself. i get home sick pretty easily 😝

Q-read the book or watch the movie?
A- it depends. i usually watch a movie and I LOVE THE MOVIE so then i look up more about it and then i end up seeing that there is a book so then i end up reading the book as well to get more insight into a movie i really loved.

• gutz

why do i deserve anything. There are so many people who struggle more than me and im like "boo whoo i don't feel comfortable with my gender and my sexuality prevents me from having a normal life boo whoo". Like why can't i just be normal. No one understands how i feel and even if i try to explain it then im just confused and don't know who i am. WELL the things i am sure of yall are like "nah" fuck you. I am so alone. But thats okay. other people have it worse god damnit... i need to stop being so fucking stupid and defiant. Why can't i just be a girl and have a boyfriend and have sex and do normal things. But no of course i dont FeEl like a girl and i dont want to have sex or a partner. Of course not, good job! make things harder for you in the long run lol!

its a neon evangelion themed quiz but you don't need to know anything about the anime to take the quiz
heres the link https://uquiz.com/0uHVnR

corpus smorpus. hello world. i know i havent been on here in a while but here i am. im not really too happy but i am doing okay. i had a bout with being suicidal like a few weeks ago but now im afraid and alone again. at least my bed doesn't sink beneath me anymore.

• gutz

it's been an okay week. I just wish everyone would stop bothering me tbh. like let me sleep at 2pm... ive been up all night... i'm so tired.

bruh. im gonna rip my fingies off,, this coding stuff is so cool but so hard. maybe i should try to pay attention better.