sometimes life rlly sucks:/ i feel like im trying so hard to do better rn bc i have to, but i just cant. its like everything keeps getting in the way. i pretty much gave up on everything last year, and im trying to get back to where i was before that ig? which was still not good at all, but at least at that time i had a little bit of hope? idek what to call it, but it was something. when i say i gave up on everything, i rlly mean it. i went from an B/C student to just C's, then D's, and then i just stopped doing work completely. and once zoom meetings started, i told myself i would do better. i started getting up everyday on time for class, i did pretty great the first two weeks, and then i started caring a lot less again. and not having to actually go anywhere for school made it so much easier to give up, i just wouldnt wake up to my alarms, sleep as much as i wanted and do nothing. bc thats all i had the motivation to do. and im trying so hard rn to not fall back into that, but its hard. i really dont wanna go back to that again, but i just have such little motivation to keep trying:/
im really sorry for this lol, you can ignore it. i just wanted to rant ig
SMHHH THE TITLE WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY "I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE" ​😭​​😭​

*update - i cant reply to comments anymore, but thank you all so much for the nice comments. it means a lot, and seeing that other people can understand and relate to is rlly great ♡♡

hows everyones 2021 going so far? we're 2 weeks into 2021, and i feel like its going kinda fast already?...but im not rlly complaing lol

im not ready to go back to school tmr :( this year literally took forever but ofc the break goes by fast smh.
how was your break guys? i hope it was great!