i had three papers due within 12 hours and hadn't started any of them and you wanna know what i did for about three hours today? played minesweeper. it's such a good game i love it

thinking about how i didn't have any access to news or current events or anything until i was seventeen. pretty messed up to say the least. i really had no clue what was going on in the world other than what my parents told me or what was talked about at school. i really feel like going to college and getting out of the house was like getting out of a cult, childhood wack

I am officially done w p chem!! (well for the next two months that is, i still have to take pt 2 in the spring). kittredge had us do a project rather than take a final which is fine by me cause it's a lot easier and took way less time. eggs elent. I have not, however, begun my chemical ecology paper which is due sunday. v difficult to motivate myself while at home. just want t sit in bed and nap. my brain has reverted back to soup. not fair that we still have another week composed of finals. and the fact that game theory still is making us work in groups. i feel like that should be illegal, it's so difficult to coordinate the zooms, ridiculous.

Thinking about the time in which i was w a group of people for about 4 straight hours and we were all putting on music and in that entire time i was the only one to put on any music by a female artist. The only other woman in the room wasnt putting any music on the queue but the other five boys did not put a single female artist on for the entire time. i think boys just don't listen to female artist-- or at least these boys. Cause ive been in the car with them on aux and it's the same. i think it's indicative of there attitude towards women. aka i think they all have subtle (or not so subtle) misogynistic undertones

i am currently home for the remainder of the semester, with this week being the last week before finals. it is absolutely impossible to motivate myself at home, i cannot do it. looking back on this past semester i have absolutely no clue how i did it. how was it 2 weeks ago that i was working 40hrs/week + taking 17 credits + newspaper + gse? i understand why i am burnt out. i thought having a week off for thanksgiving would have been more helpful than it actually was -- it did not completely fix my burn out so that is disappointing. I suppose we will see how this time at home progresses

I went to the orthodontist on Monday and it appears as if i must continue my long wait for teeth. perhaps one day i will get boned by a cadaver and then get teef. one can only hope i suppose. while it is fun to pop out my retainer and startle people with my toothlessness, it does get a wee bit tedious with all of the upkeep. but hypothetically this will all come to an end and i will have all my teef. perhaps...

i think this will be very fun. cannot wait

i think imma just use this to record my days