okay so i'm in spanish three and for part of our final we have to give a 3 min verbal presentation. luckily it's about anything we want, but there's a little problem. i want to talk about gender neutral pronouns (like elle/le) but if i do that i'm almost certainly going to out myself. that's not a terrible thing bc my school is really accepting, however my spanish teacher is a family friend and she would almost positively use gender neutral pronouns for me around my mom. she's generally accepting of the lgbt community but she's said some mildly transphobic things to me in the past and she keeps on telling me that if i "were trans, i would be sad that you changed ur name" and misgendering a couple of my friends. do i take the risk and come out to her or should i spare myself and do it on something else.......

this is a final and absolute policy no cishets allowed

hi yall i'm not dead :)) yesterday i had to go to my dads house bc he's moving away and ended up being kept there against my will. its ok i'm home now and he bought me a new bike so i'm not that mad at him

hey babes xoxo i'm back on my bullshit

this might not be the right place to put this but nobody's home right now and i need somewhere to say this. it's gonna be kind of long so don't bother reading through it's really just a vent
i have no motivation to do anything. i'm so tired/ i keep hoping that maybe if i get a good night's sleep i won't be tired anymore but every morning i wake up feeling just as tired as i did when i go to sleep and its really frustrating. i feel like i can't tell any of my trusted adults because they're going to treat it like it's the end of the world like they did when i was having panic attacks. and then they'll send me to another therapist who i can't open up to because i can't trust them and we're gonna go in another cycle of my just talking about how much my dad invades my privacy every session while i drain my family of money for therapy expenses that aren't doing anything for me. i don't know what to do but i feel horrible that i'm failing my favorite class because i can't bring myself to do anything other than stare at the login of my school's website while music plays emptily in my headphones when i get a new assignment. my mom wants to see me succeed in a school environment so badly but i'm just a burnout gifted kid who never got the support they needed and i hate admitting it. everyone has such high standards for me and i'm watching all of my peers reach them when i'm just falling short. i hate feeling like a failure and i hate it when people tell me they're disappointed in me. i've been trying to keep my head above the water by trying new art techniques and getting out the games that i used to love when i was younger but that isn't helping with my schoolwork. every time i try to focus on something it feels like my mind goes blank and i'm so frusterated about it. i don't know what to do.

bad news you guys... the covid vaccine made me a raging homosexual :( they administered it so fast that i didn't even get to taste it. so far, i've been followed by four fbi personnel. i don't think they noticed that i saw them smh. i'm about to get my degree in political science now, so the lizard part seems to be kicking in too. overall 10/10 experience i hope you guys get yours too

yo guys i'm getting my covid vaccine today at 3 uwu i'll keep you updated on the govt tracking and mutations

y'all i wanna play danganronpa so bad but my job is still closed (because i work at the public library.... it's gonna be a while to say the least) but like its one of the few games that runs on Linux through steam that i actually want to play :( also like three people have told me that i'm a nagito kinnie idk what that even means and i need to find out

anyways if you wanna play any games with me, i'll drop my game tags below :33

Minecraft: coldtortelloni

steam: cold_tortelloni

switch friend code: SW-4499-0839-8474

here are a few of the animations i have on my blog ^o^

animation-name: spin;
animation-duration: 5000ms;
animation-iteration-count: infinite;
animation-timing-function: linear;
margin-bottom: 15px;
}
}

@keyframes spin {
from {
transform:rotate(0deg);
}
to {
transform:rotate(360deg);
}
}

animation-name: rock;
animation-duration: 5000ms;
animation-iteration-count: infinite;
}

@keyframes rock {
0% {
transform:rotate(-15deg);
}
50% {
transform:rotate(15deg);
}
100% {
transform:rotate(-15deg);
}
}

animation: rainbows 0.5s infinite !important;
color: salmon;
font-size: 20px;
}
@keyframes rainbows{
0%{color: salmon;}
11%{color: orange;}
22%{color: yellow;}
33%{color: lightgreen;}
44%{color: cyan;}
55%{color: deepskyblue;}
66%{color: mediumslateblue;}
77%{color: violet;}
88%{color: hotpink;}
100%{color: salmon;}
}
}

I've decided that every once and a while, I'm gonna make a new blog post for my css so it stays near the top :). Here's my css as of November 1, 2020.

Nov 1: https://pastebin.com/wszPCVWD

Please credit me if you use it!!