i think as soon as i got my band together i will turn this page into a page for my band.
idk if i said the band name yet but i wont do it now bc i dont wanna get anyones hopes up,if anyone even reads this...
but yeah incase you're wondering why you cant find me anymore or smth,i didnt block u,probably,i just reworked this corpse into a zombie,yk what i mean?

all ur fucking profiles burn my eyes and a lot of you ppl are fucking cancer ur better of dead get r3kt

god i gotta get used to german keyboards again,ok,so
yeah so...
i was in summer camp,photography.and it was good!the people there were really cool!!!well...the way there was shit.i had to sit with a nazi on the train,yk,not a scary skinhead,but a fucking fat 15year old reddit kind of nazi.i,of course,punched him and almost got kicked off the train bc the ppl who work there are also nazis!fucking nice m8!fuck it,i arrived either way.when i actually arrived i got into my room,and after the other guys came in i got like,really homesick,went to the bathroom and listened halfway through the downward spiral bc im such sad emo boi
yeahhhhhhh,but it was fine later on...god im so tired,focusssssssssssssssssssss!!!
ok,so.
second day,i befriended the girls next door,one of them also went to photography,the rest to literature.we sat on the balcony untill like 5AM on the fourth day,it was so fucking coooool!but uh yeah,the people on photography,so
the girl i mentioned before went there,daria,then 2dudes from my room went there too.skater and jesus.
then there was asia (pronounced ashia) ,magda,tomek and tomasz,and this one fucking annoying prick whos name i wont even mention but that fucking fucker-god!
he threw my fucking stuff in the toilet!he was rude as fuck too i cant fucking believe it,he didnt get any punishment too,pretty fucking cool.
uhhhh...there was pizza night,but the pizza was cold and i think i got sick from that.
like 3days before the end 3 bands played,and we danced pogo and stuff,the second band played sex pistols and i screamed my fucking throat out,that i couldnt actually speak untill today
uhh...yeah,idk what to say anymore...thats it

i have a rat called Lovecraft,and she's so-
ufghhhh
i wanna take her on my hand and she runs back into her cage,or i buy her toys and she just hides behind them or hides them,she does climb on this one thingy though so at least that.
idk why she is like that,maybe bc she didnt get raised with other rats bc i didnt find any anywhere,but i took her out of the cage often back then and she didnt mind.maybe she's naturally shy?can rats be shy or just...calm or feral?
...ok i checked,they CAN be shy.
well,i found some rats from a farm...breeding...whatever,i found a place where i could buy some,i think i'll get like 3 or 2
what do you think?will they get along?

well,since i have nothing to do,i might as well talk about the summer camp im going to in like...a couple of days for 2weeks.
its in poland in the hills,theres this kind of cool place we'll go to where they have a lot of band t shirts n stuff!uhhh...
i went there last year too!!!i went to acting camp there but i didnt really fit in,idk,i never fit in but thats a different topic for a different day.this year i'll go to photography since its easy and tbh i dont wanna fucking go there.
its like,yeah the people there are kinda cool but its kind of a pain to go through there,as i said,i barely fit in,like a loose brick or smth.
what else can i say...
uhhhhhhhhhhhh tomorrow i'll post an idea i had for my bands first gig,it'll be like,next year but still,i wanna share it either way

these last couple of weeks have been kind of shit tbh :T
my mom just got home and started yelling about money for litteraly no reason,i saw some nazi bullshit omw back from the cemetary,my drums broke MONTHS ago,the place i wanted to look at for my band where we could play kind of fucking broke
i think the biggest thing bothering me is that me and my family are moving to some fancy pantsy white suburban neighborhood where i will be made fun of even more probably,even if i wont,the people there are so fucking lame!!!!
all the fucking same,copies of copies,yurghhh,ackkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!
really fuckin suckz!!!