sick of my bitchass dad

mf jus hit me w a pillow bc i said okay like he told me 2 but jus a little bit louder,... that shit kinda hurt lolz. iv litrlly done all of my missing shit that i could do but no lol its never fucking enough. he says hes the one whos tired of me not doing anything and that he lets me do everything and this is how i repay him. that i should atleast do the "bare minimum" or whtevr the fuck this bitch says, he always tells me that hes here for me but he just feels so fake. anytime he does praise me or smthn it feels so fucking fake. everything does. all he fucking cares about is school i cant do it anymore iv tried as hard as a fucking can and i dont even get a good job or whatever, idk why i care its gonna feel fake anyway. i dont even get a mother fucking good morning anymore,.... ik that sounds stupid but my little sister gets everything shes fucking fake 2. i just want my mom but my dad wont even let me see my family bc im doing bad in school. i litrlly went 2 see my aunt yestrday n when i got back he made me do more school n when i got stressed out he said "stop acting like this, yr so lucky i let u see kenzie n this is what i get from you." what the fuck dude thats my fucking aunt plz. he wont let me see my mom eithr bc he thinks if i go see her my grades will get worse. but honestly they would probly get way better because she actually cares about my fucking mental health and treats me more then a fucking,.,.idk but she would treat me better,.. i miss her :(