Vent

wooo I did make a huge fucking mistake and idk how to fix it....sigh. I don't think I'll ever be able to go back to twt. I know I will eventually and just join a new side. still sucks but its ok.
I think at the end of the day "6" was just a character I used as a safe shield.
Having almost no one know what my trauma was, my past and everything. It was so fucking resfreshing.
Having ppl like me.
I don't rly mind about "losing" 6. As long as my irl / actual friends don't look at me differently.
I'll start over and I'll be better as Max. I hope this will do good for me. Education is extremely important. I'll do my best to learn...

Edit; it still burns...I lost some of my closest friends the ones I rly cared about. I guess something just weren't meant to be? I think cutting off some ppl will also help, I mean I know 1 way or another they'll just leave.
I think...I want to leave 6 behind. So many thoughts are running threw my head, I have yet to sleep. God help me hahaha
argh my brain fucking hurts.