things are going downhill (╯﹏╰）

i was getting happier with my boyfriend and making new friends, back on track with penpal things and working so i came on here way less often... today i got dumped, and i've been dissociating all day. i played some of my favorite game, but otherwise i've just been sitting in bed.. i feel so worthless again. i doubt my vacation will happen now, i can barely get work done, and i don't want to bother my friends anymore. i just want to die. i don't want to be a nuisance to anyone on here or irl or anything in between, i'm so tired of waking up and just being in this body!! i just want to be normal and happy