April 19, 2021 (The Sequel)

Just realized I should probably rant about my day.
So these EOC school things are coming up, but I have a bunch of missing assignments I need to get done that I haven't gotten done. I should be getting them done now, but I'm really tired. It's 11pm as I'm typing this, there's no way I'm getting any of this stuff done today. Sigh, I'm gonna fail school.
It sucks because I really wanna be a meteorologist, but how will I get into any college with the grades I have now? I guess you could argue that this is my first year of highschool, and we are in a pandemic right now, but still.
My dad won't stop bitching about my grades too. I get it, I'm failing, but I'm so tired all the time, I'm having panic attacks all the time, and my brain is all over the place all the time. It's no excuse, but it is too.

Oh, and my friend P (i'm shortening my friends names) got with O. O asked him out after our picnic and P said yes, I think? I don't know, it didn't seem all that big. Either way, I can't help but be a little worried. P and I are debate partners, and he's apart of my friend group which consists of P, O, C, V (my boyfriend) and me. I care about all of them, and as much as I love O, they can be a little bit much at times. I guess I just don't want O to hurt P?

Feelings are hard, and I care about my friends a lot, care about them as much as my special interests. Any kind of drama hurts me, like whenever me and my bestfriend T fight. Speaking of T, I'm also worried about them. T and I have been friends since sixth grade. We're very close, I consider them my sibling and they consider me their brother. In fact, we're so close, T's family is going to let me move in when I turn 18 and move out. I'm excited about that, I love their family a lot. Seriously, I'd kill for T and their family. I'm worried about T because they haven't been active on Discord as much as they used to be, and just how schools being going for them. A few months ago, I was in a voicechat with T and they started breaking down crying about school, and then a few months later a pipe burst in their new house. Also the fact that I haven't seen T since January of last year because of COVID, and we're waiting for everyone to get vaccinated before we can see eachother. We videocalled a few days ago, though. They dyed their hair a wonderful shade of purple and we talked about Minecraft and other random things. They looked very nice, and they seemed happy to see me. I'm glad to see them so happy.

Anyway, I'm tired, and should probably sleep.
Happy first actual blog post diary entry thing.

• Leo