mom
what if shes lying what if dad is right, she is the one left me so many times but i miss her i need her,. i think im seeing her soon i dont even know anymore anytime i try too something happens and evrything just fucking sucks. i miss her smell,, she smelled like cigarettes but better yk wht i mean? idk. i just want to hug her. and feel safe and be happy. but what if shes lying what if she actually hates me like everyone else what if she leaves again and i never see her again fuckufkcjdiondijefGVYJKHUDGSC. sorry,.. god i feel so guilty right now. i ruined her life she was only 17 her life just started then i came. and now her life is shit and its my fault. im so sorry fuckfuckfuck. dad says shes trying to make him look like the badguy and lies to me, and she left me. why would he say that why god he always tries to make himself look good and anytime i hav an emotional breakdown bc of him he jsut tries to make himself look good and im trying to ruin him. and when i dont want to talk to him im the bad person. my mom tells me to try not to get upset over him hes not worth it. i think shes coming to see me tomorrow and take me with her for a bit. i hope it actually happens. im tired of everything always being a lie and getting my hopes up but, i trust her. last night i actually happy cried,... i havnt done that in years. it was because my mom finally got a car and can come get me. but its probably not gonna happen lol. idfk.
I'm so sorry that your feeling like this not to sound cliché. I think the same way but other way around :\
Other way around I meant like my switch the parents
it is not on you that ur mom had you at that age. don't let anyone make you feel guilty for being born that's b.s. she made that decision and we're glad to have you cause you are an amazing and kind person!
It's not your fault your parents are horrible people, and you did not "ruin" your moms life, every single one of her actions are on her not you.
yeah, same here. mom had 'me' at 19, she wanted to travel the world and actually do something cool in her life. We don't pity her though since she's just a genuinely bad human being but it sorta sucks having your life ripped away from you unexpectedly. But every once in a while we try to make her feel special. We want to take her around the globe just like she wanted. But we will never pity someone as horrible as her.
hjmrj thx <3
Its ok! I went through something similar, if you need help dm me!