Hello

I'm not sure if I am going to continue doing this, I also don't really want anyone to find it but maybe I can use it as a venting tool? I am not sure, knowing me I will forget about this in a few days. Anyways if you do stumble across my page hi! My name is Marty and I am a very dramatic person so I will be venting a lot probably. I've been having issues in my friend group recently, I feel like I no longer fit in with them. I am moving very far away next year and I think they kind of resent me for it. I can't stay here anymore though because I need to get away from my family. I might be reading into things too much (I do that very often) but it feels like they're edging me out and I don't think I am a part of their journeys as people anymore. I'm not gonna make new friends this year I mean why would I if I'm just gonna leave? I guess I'm really just looking for a way to cope with all of this because there's been so much stress in my life from other things and I really don't wanna deal with losing my friends too. I HATE that I tell myself they're gonna leave me but I can't help it...it just makes sense. Anyways one good thing in my life is that I will be one year clean in 7 days! I'm really proud of myself for progressing this far :) I wanted to do a little celebration with my friends but when I suggested it they didn't really care so maybe I'll just make myself a cake or something idk. Ok I think that's enough for a first blog post! Let's see how things progress with this and if I try and make my page look better ! <3