I'm barf, I like anime/manga, making kandi, and stuffed animals. There isn't anything I really don't like EXCEPT MY MOM. MOTHER, I CAN NOT KEEP UP WITH YOUR CONSTANT DEMANDS ON MY SCHOOLWORK. I MAKE STRAIGHT A'S. I ALWAYS MAKE STRAIGHT A'S!!!!! YET YOU STILL BELITTLE ME AND TELL ME TO "keep up the good work :l" OR IF I SO MUCH AS MAKE ONE B YOU SAY "try to do better next time :/" I AM SICK OF IT. LITERALLY SICK OF IT. STAYING UP LATE DOING MY SCHOOLWORK AND GETTING LITTLE SLEEP PUTS ME IN A CONSTANT SICKLY STATE. YOU ASK ME "why do your eyes look like that?" OR YOU SAY "you look sick are feeling ok?" WHICH BY THE WAY NO I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT. THIS CONSTANT STATE OF STRESS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, FATIGUE, AND HUNGER PUTS A STRAIN ON BOTH MY MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH. I AM SO SICK. IF I WENT TO BED AND SLEPT FOR AS LONG AS I WANTED I WOULD WAKE UP IN ABDOUT TWO DAYS.MY EYES ARE HEAVY, MY FACE KEEPS TWITCHING TRYING TO GET ME TO SHUT MY EYES AND GO TO SLEEP, MY HEAD IS THROBBING, AND MY BACK HURTS FROM STAYING CURLED UP IN FRONT OF THIS SCREEN ALL DAY EVERY DAY. I WISH I BE OUT DOING NORMAL TEENAGER THINGS LIKE GOING TO THE MALL OR STAYING UP LATE SOME NIGHTS TALKING WITH MY FRIENDS. I TELL YOU WHAT ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS DO AND WHAT THEIR PARENTS LET THEM DO AND YOU ALWAYS SAY "well I'm not their mom am I" I JUST WANT TO BE LIKE MY FRIENDS. I JUST WANT TO HOLD ON TO WHAT FREE TIME I HAVE LEFT BEFORE I HAVE TO SLAVE AWAY AT A JOB AND THE ONLY FREE TIME I HAVE IS 1-2 WEEKS A YEAR ON VACATION. I WOULD GET IT IF YOU WERE LOOKING OUT FOR ME, BUT THIS IS WAY MORE THAN JUST LOOKING OUT FOR ME. YOU PUSH ME AND FORCE ME TO DO THINGS JUST TO MAKE SURE I GET SCHOLARSHIPS AND INTO COLLEGE, BUT YOU HAVEN'T EVER ASKED ME IF I EVEN WANTED TO GO TO COLLEGE, OR EVEN WHAT JOB I WANT SO YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT KIND OF COURSES I WOULD BE ABLE TO TAKE DURING COLLEGE. YOU ARE FORCING ME TO GROW UP WAY TO FAST, AND I AM JUST TRYING TO HOLD ON TO WHAT LITTLE CHILDHOOD YOU ALLOW ME TO HAVE. YOU BARELY EVEN LET ME HAVE MY PHONE ON THE WEEKENDS. I CAN BARELY MAINTAIN A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FRIENDS. I BARELY EVEN HAVE 7 OF THEM. WHEN I GROW YOU THINK I AM GOING TO BE SUPER SUCCESSFUL AND HAVE TONS OF FRIENDS, WHEN IN REALITY I AM GOING TO BE AT THE BOTTOM OF WHATEVER I END UP DOING WITH PROBABLY LESS THAN THE AMOUNT OF FRIENDS I HAVE NOW BECAUSE I HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY AND POOR SOCIAL SKILLS AND CAN BARELY FORM A CONVERSATION WITH A STRANGER. YOU KNOW WHAT??????? I'VE BEEN DENYING THAT I HAVE MOMMY ISSUES FOR A WHILE BUT AFTER TYPING THIS I KNOW FOR A FACT I DO.at least you accept me being bi miss bare minimum

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