[groans] you know, life

hey everyone?

so: life. what the fuck is it.

i don't know, and I kinda really have been wanting to know. before my purpose was to go to school, spend some time with my friends, and study so I can get to a good uni, yada yada. but now? it feels like bs KASJDNFKSN i mean, losing the whole social part of school, only connecting through the internet, school just doesn't seem interesting anymore? its not like I WANTED to go to school, but do I miss it now that its gone? hell yes.

i feel like I'm missing out. I know EVERYONE is. that makes me feel more guilty about not being happy with my life HAHAHA. bc hey! i have a nice house, a nice family, and I'm in a great school. still I feel something is missing and it's driving me crazy.

i guess what's missing is the THRILL of life, yk? walking in the street with no worries but getting home at a decent time, being able to actually be outside and... free? is that too dramatic? probably is.

i don't know man, I just feel a little bit down. it feels like, with this state of the world, there is no way out. but yk, things get better right? they always HAVE to. as a GREAT philosopher once said (john mulaney): "things get better, they always do. and then things will get worse, they always do". its the cycle of life, baby.

anywho, if anybody is still reading this, how do you do? are u okay or are u having an existential crisis? i am somehow, both. this has been my useless rant of the day. take care yall and stay hydrated (but NOT OVERHYDRATED just found out that that was a thing WHAT???) and ill see you in my next mental breakdown. bye !! xx