daily vent

05/23/20
today when i was in the shower i realized that i havent been my self lately. before i moved to michigan in november, i was very depressed. i was failing all my classes (before then i was a straight a/b student with perfect attendance and great behavior) and i would sleep all the time. i would sleep in all of my classes, i would sleep when i got home and not touch my school work and only wake up when it was time for me to go to work. and then when i got back i would stay up until 2 in the morning on my phone. but then i got grounded and moved to michigan and my mental state improved by 1000000% but lately ive kinda fallen back a little. instead of staying in the living room like usual, i stay in my bedroom on my computer ignoring everybody. i also have only showered twice this week (plz dont think im gross i dont do anything at home anyways to make me disgusting. and i still shower its not like ive gone weeks. anyways) my appetite has also decreased. instead of eating like 5 meals a day, ive cut back to only 1, maybe 2 tops with a small snack in between. and its usually lunch at like 3 and dinner at like 7. i dont go outside anymore. i stay p all night instead of going to sleep at 9 or 10 pm. i dont know what's making me get like this considering my life has made a complete 180 turn compared to before and im actually genuinely happy.. i think. either way, im not my usual self lately and i dont like it and its making me worry.