<3 05.06.21
hi hi hi hi hi hih hihi everyone !!!!!!(shamita my baby) !!! Ok quick life update: discovered some cool music & read a lot of poems for class (langston hughes You will be the death of me) and sat on the balcony for 2 hours & got into an argument with a dear friend about how sometimes it feels like i do not love her even if i do very much & saw sprouts grow from our sweet potatoes and watched until the last episode of my current fav show (jjk!!!!!! megumi !!)And I Cant seem to let it go and watch the last ep bc .I know the inevitable emptiness i will feel after it is over ;;> & thought about that one quote from olivarez that went something like “I killed a plant once because I gave / it too much water. Lord, I worry / that love is violence.”
ok what else Hmm i put a bunch of eyeballs into an art piece and played concone's etude in a flat major probably over 30 times this week and made my mom spicy crab onigiri &drew on a bunch of my brother's blue sticky notes and slapped them on the wall 3 days ago and saw them all still there today ,,. picked parsley from my garden and peeled the skin on my thumb so deep that it bled
thinking about people and whether i like our new teacher or not and thinking abt my mom going to balls when she was young and still in china and walking to campus while the 紫荆花 were still blooming, thinking about the different life i could've had and thinking about cause and effect
a anyways !!!!!! tim hortons has got to be putting crack cocaine into these iced capps There is absolutely no way something could taste this good ,;;,.., feeling like i am in a weird constant liminal space everyday , .., . my mom bought kiwis from our local chinese market ,;' had a very vivid dream about a white cat !!!!!!! there is a dude wearing sunglasses outside Holding two cartons of eggs. Idk I Think There Ar drugs in there
alright goodnight besties !!!! i think it is so symbolic and intimate to have only 2 followers like ??ok so r we gonna kiss now or??????? playlist basically: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5IRqobAUWYQnY59OLmX3TV?si=52692b09b85e4faa marry me if u listen to it. also my socks are santa claus Just Thought You Guys Should Know That
love love love !!!