Writings

11/10/20|2:06AM|Vaguely creepy and deals with panic|The heartbeats and shaky breaths sucked away all the breath, twitchy hands and shivers up spines didn't help either as eyes moved back and forth, the night was scary and it was something not liked, it felt like there was something in the dark, maybe the person would move away from the window.
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