<3 04.15.21

hi everyone !!! & by everyone i mean shamita whom is my only follower and is my everything anyway ,,.;<3 ok still don't know what 2 write in these blog posts !!!!!!! drinking an iced capp !!! treating this like my diary!! and thinking abt this day last year with the sunset and the yellow sweater and thinking was it easier then? am i happier now ??? it's cloudy today but it was sunny last year and i'm trying to figure out if the weather correlates to how i'm feeling

thinking about a portuguese word i heard once: saudade. defined as profound, melancholic longing for something or someone absent. someone that you loved. someone that might never return. & how the me that i am today is so different from the me that i was yesterday which is different from the me that i was a month ago and a year ago and i'm wondering how someone like that could ever be loved & i thought of that one post that went something like "to love someone long-term is to attend a thousand funerals of the people they used to be" and Ok. too much to think abt at once !!!!!! can my brain go back to being sloppy grey mush please !!!!!!!!!

ok vegetables !! only a select few veggies r actually acceptable in society And i'm not talking about basics like corn ,. .I am taling about the big guns. like romanesco broccoli. like purple cauliflower !!! but If I'm being honest i'm not rlly qualified to talk about vegetables bc i only eat one like every 3 weeks. don't tell my mom i said that

i'm done now bc my mom's calling me to watch some masterchef with her !!!!! & Just a note : masterchef is top tier like Cmon you have gordan dilf ramsey and joe dilf bastianich and also i force myself to fall in love with someone every season so it becomes really emotionally investing and then i have a meltdown when they get eliminated bc their soufflé didn't rise or something like that,, </3 wow I Am Tearing Up just thinking about it

here is the playlist that i was listening to while writing this Mess : https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6djfpVbrQT1zufBF26wj3K?si=5da3ea82d7464db8 !!!!!! & also here is the photo that singlehandedly got me through the day i do not know where i would be without seeing this

https://i.pinimg.com/originals/fb/16/da/fb16da2ac9bd475745df12b327a2b85b.jpg

goodbye everyone & i hope tomorrow is your favourite weather :] ₊˚ˑ༄ؘ am still trying to figure out what my favourite weather is. maybe i just want all of them for now