Hell yeah first scenekid thing where I use my Myspace page as like a personal diary/place to rant!!!
But all jokes aside, I'm genuinely getting tired of the being the one who's always taking the lead or control of all my romantic endeavors. Like, for once in my life I don't want to be in control of things you know. I want to be the one that's like flirted with or asked on dates but it always feels like if I don't do something they won't either man. It's so fucking frustrating!
Like I'm a submissive brat. That's what I prefer to be in my ship dynamics, but that never seems to work out irl. I'm the one initiating conversations, I'm the one trying to set up dates, Im the one doing everything and then it just hits a brick wall each time. I just wish I could find me that dom lesbian of my dreams that will treat ME like the princess and not the other way around.
Probably will never happen, but I can dream...