getting my shit together

i’m trying rly hard to get my life back to normal. it was hard enough leaving ed treatment, but then i crashed my car, ran out of money, and relapsed.

it sent me into a downward spiral, but i’m finally starting to pull myself out of it. sometimes i wonder why i’m still fighting, and i guess i don’t really know yet? it would be a hell of a lot easier to just give up on life, but for some reason i’m still going.

i got my job back, and the repairs on my car will be finished tomorrow. i’m also working on the relapse with my therapist. i’m trying.

all i can do is try.