Well, that trip was fun but a barely remember it. I totally forgot this account existed after two days, but I've been going through a lot so I thought it would be good to blog. I have found "mutual" love twice since making this account, one of which is ongoing, well technically. my current "gf" does not want to be in a relationship. the reason given was because she still feels like a kid. we are both 15 and i have no idea what this means. i just don't know what to do, i love her so much and she even tells me she does too but then doesn't want to date? it makes no sense and hurts a lot but it's not my place to force her. so i just go on and try to replicate the vibes she gives out. which is usually like we are in a relationship, all the lovey-dovey stuff you know, but to be honest im not that into it. I just want to be with her. i'll try to give updates when or if i remember, also i might talk about my ex. i have to volunteer in the morning, such a drag might skip