Idc if i get judged by this atp

So i get treated like shit everyday by my family, friends and yet people still wonder why i s.h. I know i have people that love me but i still feel like shit. When i die i feel like some people wouldn't care or if i kms they would be like "i didnt see the signs". And also some people wonder why i dont tell people how i feel, well mabey cause everytime i fucking tell someone how i feel they dont care or they go around telling people. And people say i have no reason to be sad or s.h. you dont know how i feel or what happens to me so just stfu. S.a is a real thing and it happens to a lot of people. that shit can cause so much trauma and its hard to open up ab that. so next time u wanna assume that someone doesn't have a reason to be sad just stfu.