Who Am I?

Originally I came to this site because I saw it on tik tok and it looked cool, I didn't know how to code so I asked a very dear friend of mine to help me, he as well joined this site. I always complain to him because he has made some friends on here and I have yet to make any. The reason for this he says and he made a cool little chart on it. The point is my page isn't one to be friends with as I originally made it for my idol Misa Amane. He suggested I make my page about me, here is the thing I hate myself and seeing as a page all about me doesn't look interesting at all. Anyways besides my yucky vent blog post I will talk about me on this post.
My name is Alex and I have a nickname only close friends call me, my favorite color is pink, I am 17, I like to read, I love art. I did ballet when I was younger. I am the worst at writing. I hate myself. I am really ugly which is why I enjoy the fact we have to wear masks now. I am not talented, I love to wrestle. I wrestle weight class 138! and I can lift 200 pounds!! I work very hard to stay fit in order to wrestle to the best of my ability. I like music and in genres, I am emo so emo music carries me, On the whole panic! thing only the old stuff is the good stuff same with blink 182, punk rock and riotgrrrl also I really love, and whatever weird music my dearest friend has shown me is also on the good stuff. He has great music taste. ME ME ME ok so I really like anime and hatusne miku, I cosplay but I don't do it too often because I don't have money for it. I like anything that has meat in it food wise.
I don't think I am intresting in the slightest and if it were me I would never dare be friends with myself. AHHHHHHH self love is so so hard. I do not think anyone is going to read this so I think that I like this, it is like talking to a wall. maybe next time Ill complain about how unlovable and horrible I feel. pffffft ok ALSO MY FAVE GAME IS IDV PLZ I NEED MORE IDV FRIENDS, like annie is coming out soon I NEED SOMEONE TO TEST HER OUT WITH, also also yea i love idv. IDV IS MY FAVORTIE, I HAVE SEEN THE STTAGEPLAY WE COULD TALK ABOUT IT, IILL draw you ur fave character, mine is norton!!!! Uhmmmm i bought edgar to get his limited skins but i never got them, if i had golden ratio i swear i would play as him i swear he wasnt a dumb purchase, and the new skin from season 15 ughhhhh i wish i still dont get it:{{