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hi besties so basically i realised my irl friends (the ones i vent about) can see my other page so ill just vent here instead!! also if ik you irl please go away lmao if i find out you read my vents ill get mad

19/04/2021
i guess i changed too much or became more sensitive towards what ppl say lmao- so i kinda uh told some of my friend group about my eating disorder whilst some ppl where talking about fasting (the religious kind i fully support it) but when i said it they just went '...' 'oh' and continued on their conversation- like i didnt want it to be a big deal but i wanted them to acknowledge it atleast yk? also me and dev havent talked in ages lmao idk what happened <3

20/04/2021
this happened yesterday but im still mad hahhahaaha- if you get upset about smt i say tell me dont gossip about in a group chat and have three people get mad because of a joke i said xoxo

https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/791528404868005938/833868279973675038/D5kN7j9LhYLrAAAAAElFTkSuQmCC.png this sucks.
im expected to do everything. idk how to do everything. if you dont know and i dont know and you asked the question you find someone else to help you, not me. lmao.

21/04/2021
imagine you had a really really good day. like one of best days of this year and you get really tired because youve done alot and then someone tells you to do smt like help with dinner and you say youre too tired and feel bad about it and want to cry for the rest of the day- that happened today and i feel really annoyed because they asked if i wanted dinner after which uh idm but when you say it it makes me feel bad about someone making food for me which i shouldnt be lol idk what my eating disorder is doing now days i think its getting better but i ate little today and feel full so idk??

22/04/2021
am i gonna have these everyday lmao ok- so i was in a gc joking about ppl who eat only one kebab and then someone comes along and says "no you guys are just fat" and then when you say "no fatshaming" they make up a story about how i flat shame them and how we arent even fat to which i respond with "people have dysphoria" and then they get get mad along with this other person (idk why they came lmao) at me that was so nice wtf

23/04/2021
i dont really know how to like explain it so around 2 weeks ago i had a breakdown for the like first time in class and its annoying because the person that was there doing the assignment with me texted me today telling me i should "control my emotions" because it "really hurt them" and uh it got me like annoyed!! because even if it hurt them that i put pressure on them i had 3 years on which i didnt express "bad emotions" (sadness, anger, ect) and now that i did someone goes ahead and tells me i should think about what other ppl think before doing smt!! and i wanted to respond "we live in a floating rock and have an amount of time to live we dont even know about.. why would i care about other ppls opinions--" but i didnt because idk how to do that and it would make them upset, then they wrote a letter!! with two+ paragraphs about all the stuff that makes them uncomfortable about me and it annoyed me and they told me not to tell anyone but this is anonymous you dont know who i am personaly (except online friends youre welcome) and i dont know who you are and if i do pls fuck off!!!!!!!!!! anygays they asked if i had anything i was uncomfortable about them and i said "idrk" because again i dont like hurting ppls feelings straight to their face but i have alot of stuff that makes me uncomfterble!! so yeah idk what to do this might seem rude but im like that <3

OH BTW HAPPY ACHIEVEMENT FOR ME I LEFT THE MOST TOXIC SERVER IM IN AND UNFRIENDED THE PERSON I HATE THE MOST FROM THERE

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LMAO I DONT HAVE ANY MORE SPACE TO TYPE ANYTHING ELSE I MIGHT MAKE A VENTING BLOG OR SMT