I've been feeling kinda blub lately

I thought i was getting better, but maybe i am not.
My whole life i've set myself goals or dates where i would feel better.
Something along the lines like: "I only need to endure till this friday... ahhh summer is 3 months away"
I hate living this way, i'd love to watch the moon now or experience something different, than sitting at home in a shitty environment.
So basically fuck Capitalism.
But i still have hope for the future, so i am gonna keep setting myself goals, because it's the only thing i can do right now.

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