love and fear

my god do i hate playing off my obsessions as a cute yanderecore type persona,,,,
im genuinely obsessed with so many people
it scares me to think that but i need to come to terms with it,,,, im scared of what people think when i show signs of being lovesick to someone whos done terrible things (this doesnt include people like mortis, dan, kaylee, or kittydog,,,,,) it makes me look like a horrible person????