de4rest di4ry ^__^

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today was a pretty good day, i guess><
a came over to my house and we played some games and watched the twilight parody movie,
unfortunately when i pulled for xiao tho i didnt get him vv
it feels weird having close friends again, it's a strange type of emotion to constantly question my every action towards my friends right now in case anything could be used against me later.. idek lol
i feel bad acting so silent but im genuinely in a dizzy.. i guess i havent gotten over my trust issues

anyway.. idk what i'm gonna do tomorrow.. i should maybe ask g if we can change plans.. but i feel bad because we keep not meeting up ahhhhhhhhhh T___T

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