gay
hey! im gonna rant about being gay so if you're not into that.... stop reading idk lol
okay first of all,,, GIRLS ARE SO PRETTY??? OMG??? like ok lemme explain. when i thought i was straight, i only liked boys bc i thought that was my only choice. however, when i like a girl its like I LIKE HER u know??? its like... idk. its so different.
also INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA IS A BITCHHHH im so tired of feeling disgusting for being who i am. and i know me being gay isnt a bad thing!! but its society man, it has ingrained that in our brains from birth.
ALSO idk if anyone else has gone through this but like... i came out as bi to my parents right? i know very clearly that i have no attraction to men. HOWEVER i cant get myself to say the word lesbian (in my native language) out loud. and it makes me so angry bc its who i am, i shouldnt be ashamed of that. but that word has been so sexualized and demonized throughout my entire life. its so hard to escape from that.
idk where i was going w this blog honestly, i just wanted to rant about dumb stuff i go through.
anyway, how are yall!!! ive been doing good! today a pretty girl followed me so like :') im feeling great ahdnwjd
drink some water yall! love u xoxo
Yes I agree. It's hard. Take your time :) Self acceptance is a journey and it's hard to do that especially in a heteronormative society. Be kind and patient with yourself <3333
I don't mean to be offensive when I say this, but I'm glad I'm not gay, I would have no clue how to talk to family about it and stuff, and I would likely be in a similar spot about the ïnternalized homophobia. I grew up super religious and a very common belief in Christianity is that being gay is like a super sin. I of course don't believe this but I know that I would still find myself guilty.
Also, today a pretty girl followed me, That's super dreamy :D
cool.i dont think you need to be scared of a word. Friend ☺
Im so sorry its gotta be like that :'( but yeah, girls huh </3 you'll figure it out eventually, stay strong please! And also you remember to drink water ^_^
AAAAHHHH so proud i mean hahhshshs super orgullosa de que puedas decir eso sin problema ily <3