Ok so I know that I haven't finished this page yet but I just wanna get something out that Im afraid to tell my friends yet.
ππTrigger Warning//Intrusive thoughts//ππ
Ive had horrible intrusive thoughts. When I was questioning my sexuality I used to get intrusive thoughts about my cousin (who I am very close to and love like a sister) to kiss her or have sex with her when she was sleeping. I fucking hate it. I hate it so much. I hate having though horrible thoughts about people I love. Ive had Intrusive thoughts about my close friends in the same vain. Thoughts like those I hate more than the ones that tell me 'im worthless' and 'there is no point to living anymore'. I hate suffering like this alone. Of course now that im older these sexual thoughts about my family have calmed but it still happens.
Anyways that's it really.
Stay safe everyone
Thanks. Most people don't get that you can't control those thoughts. Or at least not on your own. I would never act on them though.
i dont like this but i understand :(